Is it that I give up when things get too tough or too shit? Or is it really cause I'm miserable? Do I be selfish and search for something that ticks all the boxes, or do I hang in there for the betterment of the "team"? I'm always waiting, waiting for that promise that never seems to come. Should I stay, or should I go?

I'm at a crossroads. I always seem to finally find my destination, only to realise there's some bullshit catch at the end of the line. Do I compromise on my salary for that promise of things to come? Will it ever happen, really? Are there "real" compassionate business people out there, or am I naive and misguided in my hope of not being ripped off?

Should I stay or should I go? Should I stay for my friends and my loyal customers? Should I go to get out of the bullshit, the crap pay, being taken for granted and unrecognised? Will anything be better than this, really?

I'm at a crossroads and the light is fading. My choices are blurring and my emotions are overriding. I put up with the shit for a bit longer, but then I get walked over again. My emotions are overriding. My temper flairs, as ever. I take a step down one path but hesitate. I step back. The light has faded and I stand in the dark surrounded by my anger, and emotions.